I'm going to seriously kill the people next door. At 7 this morning.... some... music of some kind with heavy bass came through the wall. So now I'm in a bad mood from being woken up.

The girl that was supposed to be meeting me cancelled; I have to say, i'm mostly relieved, but a little disappointed. Mostly because I always get disappointed when people cancel plans, but I am relieved that I don't have to sit through some awkward conversation. Still, I do have to go into college tomorrow. Ah well.

I've finished the illustrations for my manga!! Ohhhh, i'm so pleased. I just need to screen tone and print them now, then they'll be ready for binding. Then i'm finished!! And only 2700 words to go for thursday... oh.

Hm, maybe I should get on that...

Not really much to report... had a mini breakdown last night through all the work I have to do, but that's it.

I'm feeling kind of apprehensive about meeting someone tomorrow. A girl from college is making some dolls for me for her work based learning, and she wanted to meet up for a drink to talk about them... but i'm not feeling very... social. Actually, really, I never feel all that social, but I have realised, over the last week or so, that I can be really stupidly defensive and closed to people for no reason at all. I mean, take the other day. Holly tried talking to me over facebook twice, and all I could think was 'Why does she want to talk to me? She hasn't talked to me in over a year, why is she talking to me now?! I don't want to talk, what would I say?' and then I got all paranoid that she had some kind of other agenda in talking to me,  but she was perfectly lovely, as she always is, so there was no reason for me to even think that.

So... i'm meeting this girl in roundabout tomorrow. We'll see how it goes. I can't stand awkward silences though.

What a horrible day. Through lack of sleep, i've been grumpy all day, i've got a headache, and all my work got lost. What's more, I caught a reflection of myself in a window and hated it.

Came home feeling like crap, BK, Joe and Jack were there. So, when they left, I sort of gave into my mood, until Dan told me that Jack had said I looked nice when I came in.

That cheered me up instantly. I wish i'd realised, then I would have thanked him. It's little comments like that that I never ever hear from anyone other than Dan, that I do NEED to hear, because for the most part, I AM a girl, and I like to be acknowledged as one from time to time.

So thank you Jack, you've made my day a lot better. =]

Edit: I just read this through again and it kind of sounds like i'm aiming it at people. I'm not, i'm really not. I'm just... fed up. ._.

I can't sleep. I keep thinking i'm hearing snuffly squeaky sounds. We haven't caught any more mice, but still. I can SENSE them there. >.>

Went to see Joe and John play the Box Surf place last night - I have to say, I'd be quite content never to set foot in there again. Joe and John were great, as always, and went down really well, but for a start I was pissed off that I got drenched on the way there (I'm always pissed off when I get wet), there wasn't any room to stand at all, and we kept getting shoved around by loads of other people, and all they had to drink was a not so appetising looking beer and Bulmers Cider. However, people did compliment me on my hair, and considering that's the most compliments i've got on my looks from a person other than Daniel for about a year or so, that did cheer me up a little. (I have red hair now, i'll see if I can post a picture at some point before it washes out. But i'm thinking of trying to keep it red from now on.)

Also, although it was due to other factors as well, I felt so completely out of place in there. It was like we were sticking out like a sore thumb, me looking... well, me like, and Dan with his duffel coat in a sea of 'beautiful people'. The 'I look so trendy, but i'm not trying to be trendy' people. Now, this may seem like i'm bitter, but I don't want to BE one of these people. They just... I don't know. It might have just been because I was irritated anyway, but they just seemed to sit there all haughty like and ... I don't know.

So yeah, that put me in a bad mood for the rest of the night really. There were some high points though. Joe playing, obviously. It was kinda fun hanging around (being crushed) next to the bar with BK and James, who Dan found out to his delight plays Saxophone.

We got it, the mouse. I went into the kitchen just a minute ago...

then promptly bawled my eyes out.

I feel really sick. I know it had to be sorted out, and it had to be killed, I just feel terrible. We've killed that little mouse. It might have even been a young mouse... it just wanted food.

I feel really, really horrible.

Part I. Anime:
01. What was your first anime?
I think it was Cardcaptor Sakura. Or Dragonball Z.

02. How were you introduced to anime?
Final Fantasy 7. The best thing my brother has ever

03. What are your anime obsession/fandoms?
At the moment, the obsession is Junjou Romantica/Egoist/Terroist. The Fandoms are many. Mostly Loveless, Final Fantasy 7, 8, 9, 12, Hana Kimi, Ouran High School Host Club, xxxHolic, Cardcaptor Sakura, The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzimiya, Tokyo Mew Mew, Infinite Undiscovery.

04. What were some fandoms that you lost?
Um... not anime ones. I lost Harry Potter.

05. What is your genre preference?
I'm quite fond of shounen-ai, a little (tasteful) yaoi, Josei, Shoujo. Not really a mecha, seinen, shounen fan, except for the classics like Astro Boy and Dragonball Z.

06. What was your first anime movie that you've watched?
Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within. Or the first Pokemon movie. Whichever came first.

07. What was the first anime you've bought on vhs or dvd?
Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children... actually, no... it was .hack// Liminality.

08. Do you buy a lot of anime merchandise, and if so, what?
Oh... too much. I have an Usa-Chan (from Ouran), A Cloud, Sephiroth and Quistis figures, A Chocobo teddy, a Moogle Teddy, Rinoa's necklace, a Cloudy wolf wallet, A Totoro, A Soot Sprite, A Totoro Wallet, a Loveless necklace, Loveless rings, Angel Sanctuary necklace, The Jenova Files from Advent Children, A moogle phone charm, and a T-shirt that I made myself of Fai and Sakura from Tsubasa when they're drunk going 'Meow?'. And quite a few posters, two wall scrolls - Squall and Rinoa and Cloud.

09. Sub vs. dub?
Hmm... I'm not sure. I don't really see the obsession with having subtitled over dubbed, especially since researching my essay. It seems very pervasive to glorify Japanese language the way that western culture does. The fact is: we are not Japanese. If you don't speak Japanese, then you are not going to understand. However... sometimes, the english versions don't always include the plotlines that the Japanese versions do; Cardcaptor Sakura is a good example. But really... I take what I can get. I don't have a preference, but I DO NOT avoid english versions of things. I refuse to. Because that, my friends, is a roundabout form of Orientalism, and it is this kind of behaviour from the west that makes things like the Americanisation of Astro Boy happen.

*breeeeeathe*

10. What are you currently watching now?
Junjou Romantica / Egoist / Terrorist.
xxxHolic
Cardcaptor Sakura
Loveless
Tsubasa Reservior Chronicle
and i'm thinking about watching Sukisyo again.


Part II. Manga:
01. What was the first manga you've read?
Cardcaptor Sakura. I was expecting it to be Angel Sanctuary, because I ordered that before I went on holiday, and it didn't come, so I bought CCS when I was on holiday and read that first. Lol.

02. What was the first manga you've bought?
No. Angel Sanctuary was. =P

03. How many volumes do you have now?
164.

04. What is your favorite manga (only, that's not made into an anime)?
Most of them have been made into Anime... but... I suppose Moon Boy would be my favourite non-anime manga.

05. What manga have you've been waiting for to be translated for a long time?
Um... none as a whole... Manga Fox is amazing. But I do get restless when the next Loveless or Ouran comes out, because they're only in Raw format, and they don't get translated for a few days.

06. Do you buy manga monthly?
As much as I can. Usually, it's two a month, if I can afford it.

07. Is there a manga series that you prefer as an anime? And vise versa?
Um... I think the artwork for Junjou is better in the Anime. And maybe Fruits Basket. Overall, Anime art is clearer than Manga art, but it's simplified.

09. Do you prefer actual manga vs. scanlations?
I do prefer the actual manga. I really like to study the art closely. I'll be stuck on one page for about 10 minutes or so sometimes,  just studying the quality of line or use of screen tone.

10. What manga are you currently waiting to be released this year?
I'm waiting for the English Ouran High School Host Club. It's already been released in Japan, and scanlated, but like I said, I prefer the manga tankobon.

Part III. Anime vs. Manga:
01. Which do you prefer?
Manga, I think.

02. Do you appreciate the art more in anime or more in manga?
Mostly manga, but sometimes, like in xxxHolic, or Origin: Spirits of the Past, or Loveless, I could just gaze at the artwork for hours. (I prefer the manga art for Loveless though; it's beautiful in both).

03. Do you like drama cds?
I can't really get hold of them.

04. If you had to choose, would you work for a manga company or an anime company?
It's actually a goal of mine to go to Japan for a couple of months and get work experience in a manga studio.

05. If you ever had your own manga made into an anime, would you want it to or would you not want it to be made?
It would depend on the animation company. I love Madhouse. Not so fond of Bee Train; I find their artwork weaker than most. Studio Deen is really lovely.

Vinyl Fantasy 7 is awesome. =3

http://teamteamwork.bandcamp.com/album/vinyl-fantasy-7?auto=mp3-320

I paid $2 for it, because i'm a poor student, but I would have paid more if I had the money.

Starting to feel a little stressed... need to calm down a little.

Hiro-san is so adorable, I want to nibble on him. Not in a sexy way... that would be weird and kind of pointless. But in the way that you just want to smush kittens into your face and squeeze baby chicks until they burst.



I saw a mouse. ICK. Usually, i'm not scared of mice, I think they're cute. Just not in my house.

We have to get rid of it (obviously), but i'm really kind of upset that we have to kill it. It does need to be killed though, there's no other way around it, otherwise, it will multiply and we'll have mices. It's just really bothering me. I mean, it doesn't necessarily mean that you have a dirty home because you have mice, they're attracted to warm places with lots of food, apparently. And we try to keep our house as clean as possible, mostly because we don't want to live in a shitpit. I just feel... ICKY though.

I made the stupid mistake of giving it a name though. Fieval. Now Fieval's going to die and i'm going to be even more upset.

Luckily, the landlord is coming on wednesday evening to look at the shower (because that smashed on friday too, don't know if I mentioned that). So we can tell him then, and hopefully he'll sort it out.

I'm going through a couple of those days where you feel really... boring, and uninteresting. It'll pass though... I just... wish I was more interesting looking. Maybe I'll dye my hair red. Dan seems to like that idea. I think I just need a bit of a shake up every once in a while, I think everyone does. Hm, yeah. I'll give red hair a try, I think.

Dan got reading glasses. ^_________________^ He looks great. The first time he put them on, I jumped him. Lol. Guess I have a bit of a moe for nerdy glasses?

I actually want a pair for myself, but I don't need them at all... I have really good eyesight. I can read things from really far away, lol. I've always wanted glasses. When I was little i'd deliberately read the chart wrong so I would get them, but I think the Optician saw right through me. I suppose it's because i'm always drawing? But then, i'm always on the computer reading fanfics... I would have though that would destroy my eyesight completely, but no. *sigh*

Anyway. I'm feeling a lot better this week; mainly because college wasn't as atrocious as it usually was. I still don't really like the feeling though that Phil was only saying nice things about my work because Mel told him I couldn't handle the bad things. So if they're only telling me good things, it'll be like last year and I'll go along thinking everything's great and it's not. Or... maybe it's that I just can't take a compliment? I'm so insecure about my work I have to find some way of making their compliments negative? Hmm, I don't know. I'll just have to be careful, I guess.

So yeah, got about 14 pages done of the manga... only another 4 or so to go! Then it's ready for printing and binding. ^_^ I'll be so pleased when i'm finished; my goal this year was to have something printed ans published and this is it. =D So when this module is over, and my dissertation is out of the way, I can get a job, and start going on that doujinshi idea I had.

Now, off to do some exercise. I've converted Mama into doing my dance/boxing DVD thing. She wants a copy of it now, lol. it's a good thing I suppose, but I really can't imagine her doing it, it's just so fast and energetic. Oh well, if I can do it, she can probably do it better. =P

I really wish my ear would stop hurting. I had it pierced at the top a couple of weeks ago, which I expected to be more painful than having it on the lobe, but I expected to at least be able to sleep on it by now. Hmph.

Had the chat with my tutor... it was quite unexpected actually; I didn't intend to. It just so happened that there was no one else in, so I ended up having a 2 hour chat with Mel, and kind of just let it all out. And DIDN'T cry. I was on the verge, but there were other students around, soo....

I'll talk about it next time. I'm busy now. =P

Do exercise videos work do you think? I'm not so sure. See, i've been doing mine about twice a week since I got it. Maybe i'm not doing it enough? Anywhos, I don't see any change. Dan says he does, but I just feel bigger than I was before, lol. Hm, i'll keep at it for a while. The lady on it is so nice, I kind of don't want to disappoint her, lol.

Done a good chunk of my dissertation I think. Still not up to a quarter, but then, yesterday I was well in the mood for writing and I only stopped because I had to get up to make a cup of tea. If I didn't stop, I'd have probably got to 1000 words. So maybe i'll get back into that later? I don't know. 

I have, however, run out of the paper I need to draw my manga, so that's put a temporary halt on things. I've done about 9 pages, which I still need to scan and screen tone a lot of them... (I could do that today, really...). I have ordered some more, but it's from a website i've never used before and i'm not sure about how long they take to deliver. I'm still waiting for a book Dan ordered two weeks ago and a DVD from WHSmiths that said it was dispatched last week. However, the reviews on the site were good. So that's something.

Mama wants me to go and talk to my tutors at college. But... I really don't want to. For a start, I know they just don't care about things like that. They really don't want to know all my little worries and things, especially when they've got so much to do already. And also, i'm a bit afraid to go in there and either not really know what to say and make it sound like it's more insignificant than it is, or i'll start bawling my eyes out which would be even more embarrassing. But Mama's got a good point - we've got a deadline coming up, and the marks for it are quite important, which means the way i'm going I probably won't get a first, which is what I wanted. If I talked to them about it, they might tell me what it is I need to do to get the marks. Or they might say that the course is self-led, and I need to figure things like this out on my own, and they've already given me the marks criteria, there's not much else they can do without doing the work for me.

I don't know. All I knows is that Mama is going to want to know what they said, because she thinks i'm going in to talk to them on Thursday. I did try to explain to her on Saturday all of what i've said here, but she just says things like 'You need to stop thinking like that' or 'Get that out of your head', or just dismisses it like 'Pish'.

So I dunno.

I've thought more about what I'd like to do once I finish. I would like to eventually set up my own design, illustration business, but I think I need a bit of a break first. I know that's really not what I should do, but if I don't I feel like i'll melt into a big puddle of goo. So I've kind of half-decided that i'm going to set up my own doujinshi/manga web site. I'll sell my own doujinshi from there and possibly other peoples, before I break into original manga. So if anyone is interested, please talk to me about it. Because i'd like to see how far this goes. I think that would be one of the dream jobs; buying, selling and creating manga. =]

Heathens!!! The people who remade Astro Boy are heretics. How dare they defile the work of a God by Hollywoodising it!??!?! I'm so angry about it. How dare they do that to Astro Boy??!? The anime that made anime!!! The work of the most important figure in Manga history, has been CGI'd!!!!! No! Fucking ANIME!! Do they not get that?? It's ANIME!! They've taken something so completely beautiful and Americanised it. I'm so upset. ._.

Osamu Tesuka must be spinning in his grave. Jesus, why do they have to ruin everything? Before, I just had a mild dislike for Hollywood americanising Anime, but for something like Astro Boy that is SO important that Manga wouldn't even be as commercial as it is today if it weren't for it, it's just.... GRRRR! My mild dislike has been raised to a slight hatred. I'm just waiting for the Cardcaptor Sakura movie with fucking Dakota Fanning in it to blow my top. GRR! No, wait, Dakota Fanning's already been in an anime. They're bloody well taking over!!!

*sigh*

*cries over the smouldering wreckage that is Post-Modern society*

Some good news! I got a 64% for my literature review and dissertation proposal. That's a merit. =D

However, the buzz that I got from that was quickly sucked away by Phil (my tutor).

But I ranted about that yesterday with Vinita over a coffee, so I don't feel like I need to rant here.

Went for lunch with Vini and Stu yesterday though, and for the first time since joining the course I feel like I actually have some friends on it. I mean, Vini's always been friendly anyways, but yesterday was the first time I actually felt like we were going out and doing something 'as college friends'. Weird, but good.

Mama and Papa came up today, and brought Marc with them, lol. Apparently it was nice and awkward; I just wish I could have been there to see them all sat at Trago eating breakfast together. XD So I went into town with Mama and Papa and Dan stayed with Marc to do some recording. Now they're at Morrisondros getting alcohol. =]

So yeah. A mixed bag this week. =P

SIX PAIRINGS I LIKE:

1. Usagi/Misaki (Junjou Romantica)

2. Cloud/Tifa (Final Fantasy VII)

3. Soubi/Ritsuka (Loveless)

4. Tamaki/Haruhi (Ouran High School Host Club)

5. Izumi/Mizuki (Hana Kimi)

6. Hiroki/Nowaki (Junjou Romantica)

THREE SHIPS I'VE ABANDONED:
ie ships i used to go crazy over

7. Harry/Hermione (Harry Potter)

8. Kyon/Haruhi (The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya)

9. Yuki/Tohru (Fruits Basket)

THREE SHIPS I'VE NEVER LIKED:

10. Cloud/Aerith (Final Fantasy VII)

11. Leon/Aerith (Kingdom Hearts)

12. Ron/Hermione (Harry Potter)

TWO SHIPS THAT HAVE PIQUED MY INTEREST:

13. Rahzel/Alzied (Dazzle/Hatenkou Yugi)

14. Yuuko/Watanuki (xxxHolic)


1. Why do you dislike 11 so much?
Because 1. He's not called Leon, he's called SQUALL. And 2. He's in love with RINOA. 3. Aerith is in love with ZACK. ¬_¬

2. Who do you know that ships 13?
I don't actually know anyone who's even read Dazzle, let alone know who Rahzel and Alzied are.

3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple 3?
Um, I don't know. Finding Ritsuka's name somewhere. =]

4. What is your favorite moment for 1?
In the manga, so far, it's when they're in the hotel room with the panoramic view. =3 In the anime, it's the bit on the end of an episode, can't remember which, where Usagi leaves Misaki a little bit... disappointed... by falling asleep, lol. It's hilarious.

5. How long have you been following couple 6?
Since I started reading Junjou Romantica last summer?

6. What's the story with 8? What made you stop caring?
Well, I still KIND of like them, but as far as I can gather, Kyon kisses Haruhi in the second volume, then swears never to do it again, and I haven't heard otherwise, so... I don't think there's a ship there.

7. Which ship do you prefer--2 or 4?
Oooohhhh.... I have no idea. Cloud and Tifa are childhood friends, which is really cute, but Tamaki and Haruhi are really REALLY cute... Oh, I don't know.

8. You have the power to make one ship non-existent. Choose from 10 or 12.
10. I don't really care that much about 12 anymore.

9. What interests you about 14?
I have no idea. o_0 I think I just have this thing about Shota... although Watanuki isn't really young enough. But still, they have a weird relationship...

10. When did you stop liking 7?
When Harry kissed Ginny. I do support the Harry/Ginny thing... I just think Hermione would have been better.

11. Did your interest in 9 kill your interest in the series?
A little bit actually... But luckily I grew fonder of Kyo when he grew up a bit.

12. What's a song that reminds you of 5?
Story of a Girl - 3 Doors Down

13. Which of these ships do you love the most right now?
Oh... well, I love them all really... but I do love Uasgi/Misaki... oh and Hiroki/Nowaki.... Soubi/Ritsuka... Izumi/Mizuki... yeah, all of them.

14. Which do you dislike the most?
Cloud/Aerith, mostly because we all know it's Cloud/Tifa, but there isn't enough concrete evidence to put the thing to bed, so you've always got some Clerith shipper going on and on... But the way I see it, Aerith belongs with Zack, that's why she was attracted to Cloud, because he acted like Zack. Cloud was always in love with Tifa. He just forgot.

15. If you could have any of these pairings double date, who would they be?
Usagi/Misaki and Hiroki/Nowaki. Not only because it's actually possible, but Misaki would be freaked out because his literature teacher is 1. gay and 2. friends with Usagi and 3. going out with the guy from the flower shop, Nowaki would be freaked out because Hiroki used to love Usagi and Hiroki would be freaked out because he's an antisocial little bastard. I love Hiroki, lol.

16. Have 2 kissed yet? Elaborate if yes.
A subject of much contention.I would say yes, I think the writers would say yes, I think impartial people playing the game would say yes, but most Clerith people would say no. One scene would depend entirely on how you play the game, whether Cloud kisses Tifa or Aerith on the hand and the other is a 'fade to black' scene.

17. Did 4 have a happy ending? Do you think one is likely?
Not yet, but i'm pretty sure it's coming soon!

18. What would make you start shipping 14?
Well... i'm getting there already, I think. If Watanuki would stop thinking about Himawari. (I haven't got that far into the anime yet.)

19. If only one could happen, which would you prefer--2 or 6.
Well, like Kenkai's answer, 6 has already happened, so 2. =3

20. You have the power to decide the fate of 10. What happens to them?
They stay good friends. D'awww....

Okay... so...

Dissertation is due in about two to three weeks. I'm not entirely sure which.

Haven't done a thing.

Well, tell a lie, when I heard the news, I hadn't done a thing. Now however, i've got a little bit done. But it really is just a little bit. I have 4000 words to write, and i've done 300 ish? And I have to submit an artefact with it - i've gone for a manga volume, of which i've just finished the fourth page. I'm aiming for about 100. Two weeks. Ouch.

So I have to refrain from downloading episodes of Junjou Romantica until i've finished - which is really hard considering i'm at a good bit, and Dan's just ordered me another volume. I can already feel myself panicking slightly - had an awkward conversation with Mama the other night. She didn't know i'd gone to counselling or anything... she does now. So she was really worried, and Papa was really worried too. He ACTUALLY said he thinks the world of me, and he loves me a lot and my work is good. Now, this may seem insignificant to a lot of people, but my parents have NEVER bragged about me or Martyn. If someone asks, they tell them, but they've never gushed about us. EVER. They really do think it's wrong to gush about your kids to other people. So, it's a big thing for them to acknowledge something like that.

So now i'm panicking to get this done so I don't disappoint them.

*faints*

I like this.

One day. One day at college and it has me thinking that maybe dawdling at the traffic lights when the orange light is flashing might not be such a bad idea. At least it would get me out of college the next day.

Funnily enough, it's not my dissertation that's the problem. I'm actually almost enjoying it. I don't want to get hit by a car to avoid doing it.

It's everything else. I just don't fit. I'm just not up to the standard of BA Illustration. I'm not failing... but i've always prided myself on, if nothing else, being good at drawing MANGA. If I can't draw anything else, at least i'm fairly good at MANGA.

So when someone comes along and does manga better than me, it's a bit of a blow anyway. But i'm not as ignorant to think there isn't anyone better than me ever. It's that she sits there and she's LOVING it. 

So what little confidence I had when I came back from Cornwall has, over the course of the week been reduced to something worse than it was before I left.

Brilliant.

How CAMP is this?



I really have to stop watching trashy boys love anime. -_-'

I can't wait for the next issue of LaLa. I never really know when it's out, because the manga always says like the 28th of the month, then when I go online on the 28th, it's been out for days. *sigh*

Went to Morrisondros today. Had a Banoffee Tart. YUM.

This was a waste of an entry, lol. I have ABSOLUTELY nothing to write about.

*thinks*

Um... it's... snowing? (Sorry Joe, lol) There's only a little bit here, not the blizzard they promised us. Our lane is still pretty slippery though.

Oh... and it's stopped.

My legs feel horrible. I did the boxing section of my DVD yesterday (I know, I know, i'm so SAD) and it had like... bendy downy bits in it. So the muscles in my legs are now sore to match the skin all over my legs being bruised. Yay for me.

Still petrified of the shower. It's become a real issue because I don't know how i'm going to have a shower tomorrow while Dan's at college, lol. I'm sure i'll grow up and deal with it somehow.

That's it really. =3

I just thought i'd make a note of this tiny chapter, because I want to refer back to it, and I really like it:


The will to truth, which is still going to tempt us to many a hazardous enterprise; that celebrated veracity of which all philosophers have hitherto spoken with reverance: what questions this will to truth has already set before us! What strange, wicked, unquestionable questions! It is already a long story - yet does it not seem as if it has only just begun? Is it any wonder we should grow distrustful, lose our patience, turn impatiently away? That this sphinx should teach us too to ask questions? Who really is it that here questions us? What really is it in us what wants 'the truth'? - We did indeed pause for a long time before the question of the origin of this will - until finally we came to a complete halt before an even more fundamental question. We asked after the value of this will. Granted we want truth: why not rather untruth? And uncertainty? Even ignorance? - The problem of the value of truth stepped before us - or was it we who stepped before this problem? Which of us is Oedipus here? Which of us sphinx? It is, it seems, a rendezvous of questions and question-marks. - And, would you believe it, it has finally almost come to seem to us that this problem has never before been posed - that we have been the first to see it, to fix our eye on it, to hazard it? For there is a hazard in it and perhaps there exists no greater hazard.

- Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil.


That done...

Mama bought me a DVD today. ^_^ My D N Angel DVD that she couldn't get me for xmas. Hee Awesome. Mama daisuki! (Littlle geeky in-joke there... I don't honestly expect anyone to get it...)

Um, didn't do much today... downloaded my episode of Junjou Romantica at last. It just didn't want to be downloaded, but I managed it in the end. =3 It's a Usagi and Misaki episode too. Yay. ^_^

I ordered Volume 7 of Romantica the other day from Waterstones... but they were out of stock... I knew they were out of stock when I bought it, but they said they'd order it in and due to the strange idea I have in my head about Waterstones' awesomeness (I don't know where I got this idea from; maybe because they've never done anything to annoy me too badly), I believed them. But now, it's a couple of days later, and the awesomeness of Waterstones is slowly slipping away as I haven't heard a thing from them. So i'm debating whether to cancel my order. But then I wouldn't be able to buy Romantica - I have a gift card for Waterstones, so I can only buy from there. But I did want to start collecting Hana Kimi... Oh, the dilemma. Life is full of these little problems. What shall I do?

=P

You'll notice i'm a lot happier at the moment. That's partly because i've been doing exercise so I feel better, but mainly because I haven't been to college yet. You wait, next thursday it'll be *DOOOOOMMMMM*.